Experiments with enough – Day 68

Grumpy day. From early on in the day I could tell it was one of those testy days. Which of course has nothing to do with the day itself and everything to do with me taking on far too much and expecting far too much of myself.

Things that usually were bog standard happenings suddenly triggered me like crazy. I could feel my nerves at the edges of things and at least inserted a few extra breathing cycles before reacting to things, which tends to help.

I worked from home in the morning, visited a friend, worked so more and eventually made it to Zouk class, missing a meeting I really would have liked to attend in the process.

Zouk was a total remedy to the day and I left the place much happier than I was when I went in.

On days like this a part of me feels like things would be easier if I turned into a bitchy, strict, non helpful person. Would I then not be respected more and asked to do silly things less?

Yet at the end of the day, I know that as long as I am taking care of myself (and there lies the challenge), I can be the nicest person in the world and feel extremely good about it. Now to find that self-care gap that’s in there somewhere…